Posted by: Ann Medina on 08/12/2024
I was:
A religious mom
A hopeless mom
A young mom
A single mom
A homeless mom
A stressed out mom
A post partum depressed mom
A section 8 and food stamp mom
An insecure, but
look at me kinda mom
A promiscuous mom
A standing in line for
Christmas gifts mom
I was the world owes me everything kinda mom
A negative mom
An autism mom
A couldn't tell me nothing
kinda mom
A dyslexic mom
An uneducated
I only got my GED kinda mom
A court room
custody battling kinda mom
A online dating mom
A clubin mom
A get in my own way
alot kinda mom
A high mom
A foolish mom
An army mom
A confused mom
An everyday I'm hustling
A selfish mom
A prideful mom
A don't you dare
mess with my babies mom
And a I don't need
no body kinda mom
I was also
A know it all mom
I was
A yelling mom
An angry mom
A cussin mom
An always had to
be right kinda mom
A controlling mom
An abusive mom
An addicted mom
A co-dependent mom
A drink way too much
wine kinda mom
An arguing mom
A difficult mom
And a I don't like what I see in the mirror kinda mom
Because I was a
Feel sorry for me kinda mom
I was also a
hurting mom
A broken mom
A rejected mom
a lost mom
A dieing mom
A blind mom
A hardened heart kinda mom
A scared mom
A lonely mom
A frustrated mom
A depressed mom
An anxiety ridden, pill popping, wanted to die kinda mom
Until I became
A making better choices
Now I am a healing work in progress kinda mom
I am a blessed mom
a Joyful mom
A peaceful mom
A hopeful mom
A helpful mom
A gentle mom
A kind and caring kinda mom
A content mom
A quiet mom
An understanding kinda mom
A listening mom
A present mom
A self-controlled kinda mom
A healthy mom
A positive mom
A Jesus loving
worshiping God kinda mom
And now when I look in the mirror
I see my true identity
Smiling back at me
I shine bright
for all the world to see
All because Jesus
became so real to
my moma heart
And he is healing each part of me from my inward perspective to my outward reflection
I'm not a perfect mom and do not claim to be
So I give all of myself to the only one who can complete me
The only one who catches my every tear
As it rolls down my cheek
And soaks into my pillow,
Hiding my face
I scream out to him
Father, please help me!
He is the only one who always gives a listening ear to my
every prayer need
The only one who has always cared
And who was always there and will be with me when I am scared
He promises never to leave me
And I trust his word
Because he is a good God
And he has brought me too far
For me to just give up now
I cannot
I never will
Because my life is not my own
I am not the one in control
I do not live for myself
But for the sinless one
who died in my place
Bearing all of my sin and
all of my shame
He hung naked and
in agonizing pain for this mama
Because he says
I am just that precious
So, I honor him with my
whole heart, life and soul
My devotion to him
will never go astray
It is a deliberate decision
That I make each and every day
And what my savior
has done for me
He can do for you too
All you have to do
Is let go of you
Believe in Him
And receive Him
To live in freedom now
And for all eternity
At peace in His presence
I find my rest
finally free
